root canal... dreams..... bisonours....

how much pain would you be willing to take to get rid of a hurt that you realized you no longer want to be bothered with?.... after so many times that you found yourself just lying with your head down on the pillow, thinking that if i just didnt move, then maybe i wouldnt feel the pain. or the sleepless nights just staring at the ceiling, wondering when i would be fine again....

"its ok. you can be strong, you can take it. then you'll be fine again...", she said. and i just closed my eyes and held my hands, as she shoved the needle harder and deeper, and slowly scraped all the tissue and the nerves from the bone.... until.... it finally died.... and i realized that i now no longer feel anything...... and i can be perfect..... and you can no longer hurt me again.......


by raeven...


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dreams.....

i found myself, after running for some time, stopping short of the edge of this cliff that ended in a madly steep precipice into what seemed like a nearly endless fall on even deeper waters. and i just stood there, staring over the edge for some time, peering as much into the deep waters as i could. and i stood there for what felt like such a long time that i didnt notice it has been raining already and i probably shouldnt be standing at the edge of a black granite cliff. and then i tried to turn and go back, but the rain had made the rock so slippery that i slipped, and -wham!-, slammed my face hard on the rock.... and i woke up in a jump, startled and restless....

leave it to me to be so clumsy even when i sleep. i've broken my heel twice, and almost broke an ankle once. wonder when it would stop..... -_-


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bisounours

Je suis un enfant
Je refuse le temps

Je regarde le ciel et cet arc-en-ciel qui m'apaise
Je regarde la lumière et puis j'erre dans mes rêves

Oublier le temps
Rester un enfant


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I am a child
I refuse time

I watch the sky and this rainbow alleviate myself
I watch the light and then I wander in my dreams

Forget the time
Keep being a child