"in pursuing, sometimes the pursuit comes to mean much more than the pursuit itself..."
hmmm, i guess after the long wait and all the built up excitement, i should write something abt it.... but i'm still pretty happy, that i'm good with just sitting here and smiling abt it =] ..... (despite the really nasty fallout when the dendrites slowly died)..... sometimes i wonder if alice felt the same thing when she fell into the rabbit hole and landed on wonderland, like i did then....
2 years... 2 years is such a long wait, and specially when it gets harder when you're just about nearly getting there and you've found more reason and motivation to be there (a mission, to find the harvard again), and at the same time it looked more and more that you might not actually be able to get there, and you're was starting to think abt what getting there actually means, if it would really matter that much whether you were ever able to get there... but sometimes when you think things are falling apart, they're actually just slowly falling into place.....
and it was great ^_^ thanks so much to anakin for the tix, and sis bevs for the candies, and maldita for the outfit and david's prestige at podium for the hair, and lucy for the color =} .... yup, twas a blast, and even if i knew it could have been better, i love tiesto, tiesto rocks ^_^ was up and dancing all through the morning till dawn, in a haze of lights and pulses and beats. and then after, found myself up high having a smoke and a burn, watching the bay and the sunrise over roxas. twas a spectacular view, altho pretty painful to the eyes after partying all night. spent the rest of the day in the capt's cabin, buried in cozy sheets and really soft pillows, alternately staring at the white ceiling and watching cable, wondering when the sandman would come to take me, but the synapses were already burning.... and then, after exaclty when the moon has made it's whole round, i snuck away into the morning, racing with the sunrise back to reality....
well, i didnt find what i was initially looking for, but i found something.... dont really know what to make of it, still poking arnd and abt to shake the box to see if i should put it down and run away. hehe.... but i know that i'm glad i'm just finally good now, still walking to find and get to the path i wanted to go, balance, peace, and yoga, goals, choices, decisions, and palm pda.......
i guess in a journey, sometimes what comes to mean more than just arriving at your destination, is that you continue to walk on to the path that you've found, on the way getting there......
