whenever u wear the shirts, the zara polo that i gave u, do u think abt me? whenever ur out at ur balcony right in front of the bay, having breakfast or smoking, do u remember when i was standing there with u?... i never asked u to stay, i never asked u to tell me some particular words (i'm allergic to them), and i never wanted to get stuck in a commitment. but i got stuck on u anyway..... not really sad right now, i'm completely fine on my own and i've never been better. but i'm jst thinking abt what i felt i've been missing, all these years until now.... this song and music video, jst like all the memories, have come back after all these years like it were jst yesterday... it also makes me smile to remember anyway....

la lunga tortuosa e strada...

sometimes, no matter how far u've gone, all the miles u've driven, the oceans u've flown over, and the mountains u went thru, u cld still find urself back on the same road anyway. in fact, u never even really left before. because u still live with the memory of a ghost that u've been trying so hard to hold on for the longest time.... a ghost who still wears the shirts u gave him after all these years....

abt 4 years ago when he came home from work, i was already at sofitel waiting. when he got in the door i jumped on him, and then after he put me down i said i really liked the shirt he was wearing. then he jst took it off, stripped it off right there and then, and handed it to me saying it was mine. i said no, i meant that i really like the way that he looked in the shirt but i shldnt take it so he cld always wear it and look really hot and gwapo. he said no, he wanted me to have it, so i wld always remember him. which is why i bought him a polo from zara, to replace his zara polo that he gave me... and after almost 3 years now that i havent seen or spoken to him, i saw this morning the navy blue zara polo and the other black tiesto shirt that i gave him, hanging in his wardrobe closet with laundry tags dated june 2012....

now, i am abt a hundred miles away in never neverland, but still thinking abt u and how i am really happy to know that u still like them. and i also still wear and use ur baby blue zara polo that u gave me. but soon i will be leaving this road for good, the road thats always led me to ur hotel suite and ur door all these years. and there really will be no chance that we'll ever see each other again. but ur shirt will always be on my pillow, or on me when its cold. and i will always think of and remember u, my dear captvasilis...