.... funny how sometimes you'd rather not hear something, because you do understand, and it hurts also to hear what is said with it or meant behind it.....
its okay, you know it'll be ok when the dust settles and all will be good. dont worry if i feel sad abt it now, its fine and all will be good eventually. u jst caught me at a bad time, so now i'm not taking it down well. its alright, jst need to be for a bit, to process things...
so now i'll jst sulk to my favorite torment: regressing to mou glyka, my refuge whenever i fell into the black hole. funny how even now when he's no longer here i still find comfort in thinking about him and that calm stillness i found then.... this is me trying to my comfort in this black hole....
se thelo mou glyka... akomi....
emo mode again... damned heebiegeebies x_x
the dying field of sunflowers……
running madly through an endless field of sunflowers laughing like a lunatic,
drowning in the sun yet freezing to the bone.
in a moment’s despair you stop to find you’re all alone,
silence deafening and painfully ringing in your ears.
and then the endless field fades into an endless barren desert,
and the bright pretty sunflowers slowly die under the burning light and the freezing cold…..
bad romance
lady gaga got it right with the glitz, glam and grotesque.... very few people know and understand the beauty that is in the freakish and the absurd, and even much much fewer can pull it off so fabulously. =]
je ne veux pas votre amour et je ne veux pas être des amis....
... ande gamisou...
thank you for the greet, but i hope you know i'd rather have not heard from you at all. not yet, not right now. please just let me let go and forget you....
ande gamisou, mou glyka....
forever
"... it may not mean nothing for you all, but understand that nothing was done for me. so i dont plan on stopping at all.... i want this shit forever mine....."
thank you
thank you for taking me out to dinner, coffee, a drink, and then bar and club hopping (if i knew u were already planning to go clubbing, we should have skipped the coffee already =P).... havent really met much people who could stay up as long and as much as i could, but you tried your best to hang to catch the early morning breakfast (the best way to wash off all that damn alcohol u watched me drink)....
you dont know how much it means to me to go and be able to go and live again.... and in the haze of the dawn, in the midst of the music growing stronger and harder, and the shadows were growing darker while the lights pulsated faster and the freaks got freakier, i found and felt that i could finally start getting my life back again....
these songs are for you. they were played at the clubs we went to, if you couldnt remember.... i could.... =}