.... and as this era comes to an end, we ponder on things that were, as we usually do once coming to a closing.... and i've realized that i've pondered a lot about things that were, but really not enough of things that will or could be....

... i could be and do so many things, i could be so much more... i just have to stand up and move on to the new year. we all should, just stand up and get moving, and do things, do much more. and then all our lives would get better, and the world would be better...... we just have to stand up and get out and do, and all it takes is just one step....

staring at my feet right now, trying to get over how much it hurts. just trying to take that step... i will.. i just need some time....