Ataraxia 191003

In the eye of the storm...


I woke up to a booming thunder, and realized there was a storm raging outside. But when i finally walked out of the door to the back porch, i found the mid afternoon bright and sunny... Well semi bright.. But the light still hurt my eyes. And the raucous chirping of those damn birds hurt my brain....

When i sat down to gulp my coffee i looked out to the garden and realized the destruction around me.. Leaves everywhere, and fallen trees....

Then within a few minutes everything turned dark again, the sound of the chirping birds and insects all stopped. Thought to myself we must be near the eyewall already. I was listening to the howling wind in the distance, waiting for the sirens to start blaring, when i realized...

What i thought was howling wind actually sounded like my voice screaming in the deep recesses of the back of my mind....

My mind's eyes i suddenly saw myself back up in my high lonely tower, trapped, screaming my head off as i watched everything around me decimated into shattered pieces...




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As i walked up the the curb and made my way to the dark alley, there was this guy, some junkie, sitting on the corner of the alleyway who stood up to stop me..

"Where do you think you're going?"

I pointed to the darkness in the alley. "There."

He looked at the little girl in front of him and smiled a shit eating smile..

"You cant go there, you're a princess. And people like you dont go to places like that."

He gave a hearty laugh, then this time smiled like he was going to eat me. Then he looked into my eyes, and stopped laughing.

"Your eyes.. "

For a moment, fear went across his face, which quickly turned to menace.

"My irises are twice as big as they should be? And twice as dark?"

My turn to laugh the sinister laugh i've always loved.

"I took a long time, and great pains, to make sure nobody ever sees whats behind my eyes ever again."

Then i smiled, a smile that i loved seeing on my face. The smile that both terrified me as the sound of a thousand souls screaming, and made me feel.... Happy....

But it made him run away.... Tsk, too bad....