Very few people, actually consider what other people would be like and say in their funeral... Been figuring out who would actually say what for about 2? 3? Hours now....

But in the end, i guess all they would say was, "She seemed happy, she was always laughing..."

"She had everything... But perhaps it meant nothing, because in the end she died alone...."

Well, i never truly understood as well, how fucking people so stupid could exist longer than myself, when they should have technically been defined as retard autistics, and yet they still survive, and flourish on this earth....

But anyway...

I have... Had... Have, a playlist for my funeral, and if fucking shit autistic retards don't get it... Well my sister would get it, and she'd somehow understand why i want to have this song played, as they lower me to the ground.... She'll get it .... She'd get it....

She'd accept, at least that this is the song i loved in the end...

That despite everything... In the end, despite the fact that she never realized just how miserable i was, that i was always terrified my entire life... And i was always miserable, just by being alive.... That i was also happy.......


(cueue the memory flashback of my life).....